In June this year my man and I are going to welcome our first child into the world. Which is amazing for us as I was told by many a Dr that this may NEVER happen for me due to being born with Gastroschisis and having PCOS. So we were happily surprised when we found out the news.
I was thinking on the transition that my life is about to go through and is currently going through this morning while I lay in bed feeling baby moving around and it dawned on me that I am going to be kissing the Maiden aspect of my life phase goodbye and transitioning into the Mother aspect. While I have birthed a few things nothing is going to compare with bringing this life into the world. So I was thinking about what I have learned from my Maiden phase of life and what I am going to be able to bring to the next phase of the Mother.
I will take a step back and briefly cover off the triple Goddess aspect of my Spiritual path for some context and sharing. The triple Goddess in Neopaganism is tied to the three phases of the moon. When she is growing in light she is referred to the Maiden and bring new beginning, growth, energy, adventure with her. When the moon is full and at the height of her light she is the Mother, full of energy and in a lot of art the full moon is linked to a pregnant belly. When the moon starts to shift into darkness and meditation she moves into the Crone aspect of life. This is exceptional brief in explanation as people write entire books on this subject so if you want to read more about the Triple Goddess check out this link (I would also like to note that just because we all don’t experience the Motherhood phase in our lives so directly doesn’t mean that women are less powerful or spiritually connected or evolved in ANY way.)
For me a lot of this transition has felt like I have been gifted a part of my life I never thought I was going to be able to experience first hand. I was okay with not being a mother if it wasn’t meant to be. I enjoyed watching my friends become mothers and being a part of their children’s lives. So to have my reality shift so quickly and so radically it has been an awakening.
Yes I am going to be saying goodbye to being able to travel when ever I want, and I used to do that a lot. Yes I am going to have to put another life before mine. I am also going to be more responsible for a lot of things but I am not so sad of saying goodbye to a lot of things. But it is also terrifying. I am so used to being able to be selfish if I want and while I want to maintain my own identity and life while I am brining up baby I also want to be very present and available. Which is my choice.
I have learnt indépendance being the Maiden. I have lived alone and learnt how to care for myself. I have travelled alone and that has transformed my life so much in regards to learning what I am really made of and what I am capable of. I have made irreplaceable connections with people who I will hopefully have for the rest of my life. I have learned to say NO when things or people do not honour my highest good. I have learned that red wine WILL give me a hangover and so will copious amounts of champagne. I have learned patience while waiting at numerous air ports while flights have been delayed or even cancelled. I have learned to be aware of where my emotions are coming from and to be responsible for how I feel (most of the time). I have learned how to communicate with people from boardrooms to classrooms. I have learned forgiveness. I have learned to walk away from people even though it really hurt. I know myself better all thanks to being able to embrace the Maiden aspect of my life. I am thankful for those 10 + years where I had the opportunity to be me and learn who I am.
I am thinking of holding a little ceremony to say goodbye to the Maiden in my life, the mountain hiking, bar top dancing, flirty, gaming until 5am, travelling for work at the drop of a hat, girl who really was flying by the seat of her pants a lot of the time. I am sure I still will be doing that in Mother mode but I will be doing that with the help of an amazing man and a little bubba.
